Firstly, thanks for all your support and well wishes for my interview and presentation. Both went really well, I think. I got an 85 on the presentation but that still doesn't get me out of the rough for that course. As for the interview, I did my best and we got along so if they don't want me, I can take solace in knowing that I did  my best. 

But that was Monday. 

This is what happened yesterday. I started getting pains in  my left shoulder/arm/upper chest. I thought "OMG I"M HAVING PREMATURE HEART ATTACK!" Then I let it go and tried to ignore it but it wouldn't go away. That night it got worse and I started Wikipediaing and online diagnosis-ing my problem. What a bad idea because according that, I either had: Angina, Pulmonary embolism, myocardial infarction, blood clots, leukemia, or bone cancer. Each time I breathed, there was a sharp pain that went up through my chest and into my shoulder. When I tried to sleep, I couldn't move because my shoulder hurt so much. I was tempted to sleep with the door open or not sleep at all in case I died or something in the night. 

When I woke up this morning, the pain was agonizing in my shoulder. It was as if someone took a sledge hammer and shattered my shoulder and it got worse everytime I moved or took a breath. Since I was worried it could have to do with my heart, I decided to go to the emergency room where they make you feel like an idiot if you don't come in on a stretcher. It's also the first time I've been to the hospital since I cracked my head open when I was two so I didn't really know what to do. I had a young, cute doctor (would be nice if he weren't asking such personal, embarassing questions and feeling up my legs which I hadn't shaved in weeks...) and he had no idea what was wrong with me so he called in a Senior Resident - who also didn't know what was wrong with me. 

Three hours later, after a heart scan, an x-ray, two Tylenol and two Advil, and a voluntary ultra-sound for a med-student (hey, I was bored!) they finally tell me what's wrong with me: Nothing. All the tests came back normal, so it's probably just muscle strain. But I didn't do anything and it hurts to breath! It could also be stress from all the shit that's been going on lately but I wasn't exhibiting any warning signs for any sort of panic or anxiety attack. I'm still in pain but it's much better now. I'm just glad that it's nothing serious. *sigh* 

Now I have to get ready for another presentation tomorrow (at least this one is very low-key) and convince my mother that there's no reason for her to drive up to Kingston. Apparently she thinks she should and I won't deny that I could use my mommy right now but it's really not necessary. I just don't feel like doing anything right now and want to sleep. Sadly, I have to work. Maybe a Top Model break will make me feel better tonight. :D

I have my first ever real job interview tomorrow at 12:15 for a job as a barista at the campus coffee house starting in September. I'm so nervous! Tips please! There are like 300 applicants and I may or may not know one of the interviewers (friend of a friend). Hopefully he'll remember me. It could either be a good thing or a bad thing.

Also, I have my big presentation tomorrow night for my Nazi Class of Death. I feel like I know everything but I'm worried I"ll lose it in front of everyone since I can't look at my notes unless I want to fail. Then the whole class critiques my draft research paper in front of me. Swell. Wish me luck.

I am way too forgiving. I was all set to hold a grudge this week against my housemates and I was so furious with them two days ago but I can't act angry with them for long no matter how hard I try. What's wrong with me? I'm a Scorpio and we're supposed to be the ultimate grudge holders. *sigh* Maybe when they come back tomorrow and talk all about their weekend road trip exploits my rage will explode again and I'll be able to seethe a little longer. 

Anyway... Am seeing Atonement for the FOURTH time (in theatres anyway) this weekend. Another friend who hasn't seen it wants to go and I'm all to happy to oblige. BEST. MOVIE. EVER. Or at least of the last five years. 

Should I be wishing you all a happy St. Patrick's Day today? I know that the Catholic church changed it to the 15th since the 17th is too close to Easter so technically it is but most people are still celebrating on the 17th, I think. Well, Happy St. Patrick's Day all the same. And I'll wish you another one on the 17th for good measure! 

So I sent my resume to that books sales company. I really hope I get it. It sounds like a fab job. Why is it that sending resumes is absolutely terrifying?!

I've decided not to go back to the job I've had for the last two summers and am now applying for jobs for this summer. It's SO stressful. I only have one connection this year and that's with an experiential marketing company my mom's cousin used to work for. It seems fun but I'd have to work every weekend which I don't want since I like going up to my cottage. I've applied to a job as a receptionist with city hall that gets $24/hr!!! I have yet to hear back, though. I'm sure the competition is fierce. Today I found a job and wrote a cover letter as a sales tracker/researcher with some book company that seems really fun and is right downtown. It seems like an interesting job and I know how to do that stuff from my old job. It's also highly paid and you get to go on a trip to NEW YORK CITY! I'm sure it'll be competitive too but I have the exact skills they want, I just hope they see that. I'm also waiting for the Canadian Heritage website to post their job listings. I'd be able to use my (almost) history degree for something there.

So anyone have any advice/wish to commisserate? I hate this. Of course I have to apply for all these jobs right smack in the middle of mid-terms/essays etc. *sigh*

On another note, all classes were cancelled today for a storm that never happened. It was a beautiful day! I only wish they were cancelled tomorrow because that's when I actually have lots of classes rather than my one today. Oh well, can't have everything!

ETA:

Here's a list of all 80 films that have won the Oscar for Best Picture. Bold the ones you've seen.

That's 39 out of 80 I think. 50ish%. Not bad but I really need to get on some of those! I can't believe I haven't seen them or have only seen brief clips. I've been really good about the last few years, though.

Best Moments
- Marion Cotillard's win and genuine, emotional acceptance speech. She really deserved that award.
- "Falling Slowly" from Once winning best song and its performance. That movie's whole soundtrack is great!
- Marketa Irglova being able to come back out on stage and give her speech. Such a classy move on Oscar's part and good on Colin Farrell for raising hell backstage to make it happen. 
-  Atonement winning Best Score which it fully deserved
- Jon Stewart was pretty good, much better than in 2006
- Daniel Day-Lewis being knighted by The Queen ;) 
- James McAvoy's little wink-nudge to Saorise Ronan when they said her name during Best Supporting Actress noms 
- James McAvoy's little dance number with Josh Brolin while presenting Best Adapted Screenplay (funny that they put the two snubs together)

Worst Moments
- Tilda Swinton's dress
- When Marketa got orchestra'd off stage
- Ben Mulroney and Jeanne Becker's red carpet incredibly awkward commentary (why don't I get E! here?! I do in Toronto - not that Ryan Seacrest was much better...)
- Atonement not winning every award right down to Best Animated Short 
- Kristin Chenowith butchering That's How You Know and the general tackiness of the production 
- Lack of A-List star power and Old Hollywood (but I guess we can always count on Mickey Rooney to show up and Jack Nicholson was in his usual seat); It almost felt like the Emmy's with all the TV stars there; Hannah Montana? Seriously? It was Oscar's 80th for goodness sake!

Strangest Moment
-Gary Busey accosting Jennifer Garner and Laura Linney. Why was he even there? 

Happy birthday to _____faith! Hope your day is wonderful!

And a special happy birthday to  my little sister who's 18 today. I feel so old!  

 I was bored one day so I went to wikipedia and looked up all the significant dates that took place on my birthday, November 17th. Here they are: 

Events
284 - Diocletian is proclaimed emperor by his soldiers
1558 - Beginning of the Elizabethan Era 
1777 - Articles of Confederation submitted to states for ratification
1800 - United States Capitol Building holds its first session of Congress
1855 -David Livingstone becomes first European to see Victoria Falls 
1869 - Suez Canal inaugerated
1871 - National Rifle Association granted charter by New York state :(
1903 - Russian Social Democratic Labor Party splits into Bolsheviks and Mensheviks 
1919 - King George V proclaims Armistice Day/Rememberance Day 
1950 - Tenzin Gyatso becomes the 14th Dalai Lama 
2003- Arnold Schwartzenegger inaugerated as Governor of California

 Births
9 - Vespasian, Roman Emperor (d. 79)
1755 - Louis XVIII of France (d.1824)
1887 - Bernard Montgomery, commander of British forces in WWII (d. 1976)
1901 - Lee Strasberg, Austrian director/Father of American Method Acting (d. 1982)
1925 - Rock Hudson, actor (d. 1985)
1938 - Gordon Lightfoot, singer/songwriter 
1942 - Martin Scorcese, acclaimed director
1944 - Danny DeVito, actor
1944 - Lorne Michaels, SNL producer
1966 - Sophie Marceau, French actress
1980 - Isaac Hanson, the ugly Hanson 
1987 - Kristibisci, Queen of the Universe

Deaths
1558 - Mary I of England/"Bloody Mary" (b. 1516)
1796 - Catherine II of Russia/"Catherine the Great" (b. 1729)
1818 - Charlotte of Mecklinburg-Strelitz, queen consort of George III (b. 1744)
1858 - Robert Owen, British father of cooperative movement/philosopher (b.1771)
1917 - August Rodin, French sculptor (b. 1840)

So basically, I think this means that I'm destined for greatness. Also, many new beginnings, dawnings of new eras etc. And lots of famous queens died on my birthday.

 

OMG HEATH LEDGER IS DEAD!!! 

Apparently he was found in his apartment surrounded by drugs. This is absolutely shocking and devestating. I don't know what to think. I feel terrible for his family, especially his baby Matilda. He was one of my first celebrity crushes back in his Patriot days and definitely the first to die. I think this is my first "big shocking death" and for most people my age. His star was definitely rising again after Brokeback Mountain and now with I'm Not There and The Dark Knight coming up. What a tragedy for someone so talented and young. I'm so upset.

RIP, Heath. :,(